This is a little late of my once a week blog but her it
is...
I have no one idea what to write this blog on. I had so many
ideas weeks ago but I don’t think I could develop them into anything now. One
thing that has been on my mind a lot lately is money. I hate how money is
needed for like everything. Eric and I have been living under the poverty line
since we got married. We have been able to make it because we live off less, I
had the ability to stay on my parents insurance, and Eric (thankfully) hasn’t needed
health care. But still, we were/are living month to month and our savings every
month (if any) are very minimal. It makes me wonder if we will ever make it out
of this phase. I believe the phrase that the rich keep getting richer and the
poor keep getting poorer is true. And what (if anything can be don’t about it)
is being done about it?
I am asking myself if the new law to provide health care for
those working 30+ hours will really work. I am finding myself unable to get
that many hours at my current job because they don’t want the added cost of
paying benefits. Now I could be totally wrong at how this is supposed to work
but to me, it doesn’t seem like it will work that great. Yeah, it might provide
more jobs for people but most people need something more substantial.
My friend Tina just posted this article that I thought was
very true.
I have only experienced the first two parts of this
article but it doesn’t make my situation any easier. When she posted it she
said, “Amen!
There are so many bigger or hidden forces at work that you don't know about
unless you live it, that's why you can't make assumptions and seek to recommend
solutions that work for one group to another group where those solutions are
unobtainable”. I think this is a very true statement. (Tina, I appreciate your
posts because I truly believe that you get it!)
I also wonder if I should just give up my search of my “dream
job” and work at like McDonalds and work into management just so I can have a
full-time job. To me, that is no way to live. I also find myself in the
situation where a business won’t hire me because I am searching for a full-time
position in a field that I would consider my “dream field” (which is athletics,
btw). How am I supposed to gain experience in anything if no one will give me a
chance? Or if my “dream field” won’t hire me because of my “lack” of
experience.
I feel like I work really hard but don’t get very far very fast.
It is the most frustrating and depressing thing to me. I keep trying to stay
positive and remind myself that God has a plan but the more we wait, the more
sad I get about the situation.
What I really want is
1. For this to not be anyone’s situation. That people who need
jobs find them and find the ones that they want.
2. For there to be some way for the poor to get out of the poor
phase of their life.
3. For people who are in good positions to find ways to help
others reach a better phase in their life. Whether that be financially,
socially or by praying.
It might seem like I am complaining (which I probably am). But
to me it is fighting. All I want is a chance to prove how good a worker I can
be and how I thrive on helping other people. Also, I hope to enlighten people
that not everyone asks to be put in this situation. That some people don’t abuse
the help that they are given. That they embrace the help they are given to help
make opportunities for themselves. That the truly need it to hopefully one day
get out of their situation.
This week was really stressful on me and I guess this was my
way to process it. I had to do some things that I didn’t really want to do
because of the position that we are in. But I did, because it needed to be done
and to be honest, I am happy to help in any way that I can. Just one day I hope
to not have to do some things because I have to but because I want to.
Don’t beat me up too much over this post...just pray for me
or anyone that you know who is in this situation. =)
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